When I was writing Wasted, I took a 30-inch by 40-inch piece of white foam board and rubber cemented on it photographs from the case. I took another 30-inch by 40-inch piece of foam board and Scotch taped to it a 23-inch by 30-inch copy of State’s Exhibit 38 – a scaled diagram of the crime scene. That diagram was pockmarked with circles showing exactly where blood splatter was found at the scene, which was the victim’s apartment, and whose DNA was in the splatter – the victim’s or the killer’s.
Let me back up and explain that Wasted was about “A rich lesbian. Her beautiful young girlfriend. And the killer who came between them.” At least that’s the description placed on the original edition’s cover. And despite it being a rather sensationalistic description, it is pretty darned accurate. Regina Hartwell was the rich lesbian who was murdered. Kim LeBlanc was her beautiful young girlfriend. And Justin Thomas was the killer who came between them.
But back to the poster boards. I placed them next to my computer so that I could stare at them every day that I was writing. Every day I was reminded that Regina’s DQ-Alpha DNA number was 2,3, Kim’s was 1.1, 4, and Justin’s was 1.1, 1.3. Every day I looked at the blood splatter in Regina’s living room, hallway, and bathroom.
Each and every day – and often in the middle of the night – I studied the photographs of the blood-stained carpet in her living room, the cigarette butts and remote controls on her coffee table, the colognes and perfume on her bathroom counter, the shed where her dead body lay in her Jeep until she and her vehicle could be burned, and her charred license plates on the ground – RHV … and then … the rest of the numbers … they’re hard to read in the burned blackness … 33H, I believe.
I stared at her smiling face in high school. She appeared so happy and innocent. Appeared. In those photos, she used to remind me of a young Reba McIntire. For some reason, she doesn’t any more. Daily, nightly, my gaze moved to the pictures of Regina as a young adult. In some, she grins goofily for the camera. In others, her back is turned. In one, she looks forlornly at her feet as she smokes a cigarette. In another, she stares out her Plaza Hotel window in New York City. I always think of her as being lonely in that picture. Maybe that’s because Kim left her on that trip, and right above that picture, I glued a photo of Regina and Kim kissing in their New York limousine.
I have photos of Kim as a smiling tot, a happy cheerleader, a proud graduate, a grinning teen playing on a jet ski, and a contented young girl as her best boy friend colors her hair. Then there’s the picture of Kim the day she was picked up for Regina’s murder. Her face is gaunt. Her eyes are blank. She’s a dying drug addict.
I used to display this poster board of pictures when I’d go into high schools on the pretense of talking about writing. I was really talking about drug, alcohol, sexual, physical and emotional abuse. Literally, students would crawl on their hands and knees to get closer to the poster board and stare at the pictures. They couldn’t believe that the beautiful young cheerleader was the same person as the dark-haired, sad-eyed, emaciated addict Kim LeBlanc.
Equally, they couldn’t believe that the handsome, preppy-looking, young man walking into the courtroom was the same Justin Thomas pictured in his mugshot – hollow-eyed, dark-eyed, angry, threatening, terrifying, and with a bad Mohawk haircut.
I’m digressing from my point as I now stare at those poster boards and get carried away with my memories. My point, as I write this on Halloween Eve, is the ghost of Regina Hartwell. Because of Regina, I couldn’t let this book go. Regina wanted to be famous. And I felt like that as long as I pushed and promoted this book I was helping her reach her goal, even if it was after death. But, I had a shrink who kept telling me that I had to let the book go, that I had to put it away, and that I had to move on to the next project. So, a year or more (and it was probably more) after its publication, I packed up all of my Regina Hartwell files, all of my Regina Hartwell court documents and transcripts (and I used to go to sleep surrounded by those transcripts), all of my interview notes and tapes, and all of my poster boards, and stuck them in the back of my guest room closet, facing the back wall.
That night, after I went to bed, the temperture in my house suddenly rose. I heard the heater running. I couldn’t figure out why. It wasn’t cold outside, nor in my house. I got up to check the thermostat, which was right by the guest room door. When I did, I noticed that the faucet in my guest bathroom sink was on. Again, I couldn’t understand why. After all, I was home by myself and I rarely used that bathroom. I turned off the water. I then walked the few steps from the bathroom to the thermostat and I tried to turn off the heat. It wouldn’t turn off.
Is this Regina’s ghost? Is she doing this? I tried to laugh at my thoughts.
Immediately, though, I walked into the guest room, threw open the closet doors, pulled out Regina’s posters, leaned them against the bed, and right as I did, the heat finally turned off, all on its own. I figured Regina Hartwell just wasn’t ready to be put in the closet.
I hear you!